not blogging and annoyance... 2 changes needed.

I have sat at the computer for a week or so now (not continuously) trying to blog but I have realized that blogging is fundamentally against the grain of my personality. I have asked myself what is worth putting in a place where everyone can but probably won't see. I, probably to the bemusement of people who know me, don't actually like to share my thoughts on matters. However, I do want to be a person that can change my behavior patterns to achieve positive life growth which may or may not be aided by forcing myself to blog but I am going to give it more of a try.

I have been giving a lot of thoughts to my own feelings of annoyance, not with anything in particular but just a feeling of annoyance in many circumstances. I don't like this feeling and I want to let annoyance go and replace it with a correct response. I was struggling to figure out what annoyance is the result of but I think that it comes down to selfishness and selfishness is the lack of love (a Yoda moment indeed). Annoyance could also be a lack of acceptance but acceptance of situations or people does not produce a positive motivation in itself which love does provide. So in my thinking I have begun to revisit love and how it expresses itself and interacts with situations and circumstances. I don't want to change only my personality through blogging but I want a deeper expression of my life to change. So love instead of annoyance... I think it will be a good change. 1 Corinthians 13:4